About three years ago, on a sunny day, I casually skipped into town and went into Debenhams, accidentally stopped at the Dior beauty counter and was overwhelmed by the hospitality and magic of makeup. I left the shop a few hundred pounds poorer but feeling like an absolute diva, and so my makeup journey officially commenced. Ever since, my life changed a little bit, time management skills plummeted, longer “get ready for work” routines, longer “get ready for bed” routines and those odd occasions I ran late were an ode to my makeup protocol. Over the years, I started believing that makeup is a ‘must have’ instead of a ‘nice to have’. It was not meant to be this way, but the female insecurities spare none and I was no exception, soon a victim of my own thoughts and crumbling confidence, hiding behind a layer of make up, I certainly didn’t need.
A little bit of impulse and a lot of motivation from my husband meant that last week, I decided to gather courage and say no to makeup. I went to work with no makeup on, day 1, day 2, day 3……day6 today and honestly I feel better. You know, self confidence is weird, it ebbs and flows but self doubt on the other hand has an unwavering strength, so I will undeniably admit that I’m not fully confident and I do carry my little bag of insecurities, err I mean bag of makeup with me in my handbag, just in case, but I have decided to stand by my decision because wearing makeup should be a choice not a self inflicted compulsion.
But this is not just about changing my make-up routine, it is about putting behind my insecurities, it is about all of us and all our frailties. We are all the same in more ways than we are different. We all experience despair, difficulties, failures, heart breaking pain, unexpected loneliness and overwhelming joy. But in our unique ways and lives, we somehow manage to weave our little comfort blanket and start hiding under it from our insecurities, it is so easily done! But don’t choose easy, I challenge you to choose the difficult path, up the steep mountain, because from top of that arduous steep mountain that you are about to ascend, is a beautiful view that is worth the trek. And trust me if I could, then you can too, so go challenge your insecurities, chase the big dreams, the new business, the new job, the new fitness regime, leave behind the doubts, the bottle of foundation and mascara, because really the hardest step is the first one, days 2-6 will just happen! 🙂