We have all had our childhood struggles, things that have have haunted us and in many ways, pulled us down and held us back. Sure we have told ourselves at some point in life that we are not good enough because we didn’t win that competition, because we didn’t get selected for the show and because whatever! Surely we have let ourselves get abused and humiliated by the self doubt lurking around us and trying to rob us of our self confidence.
As a little girl, I was never good at running, I feared it because I never did well, I feared it because there were people around me who were better than me, and then there was always the fear of failure. The self doubt that each failure left me with was so strong that I converted my fear into dislike, I told myself I did not like running, that it was the last thing I would do to keep fit and that ‘I was not a runner’. For years I built this self illusion around me until one day I decided that I was old enough to face my fears and it was then that I learnt what running could give me;the potential it had to make me feel free was soon going to be explored.
For many people, running comes so naturally that they might think I am over stressing the subject but I know several people like me who do struggle and who have struggled and given up. My story is about setting targets and working towards it, small significant targets and slow progress. I seriously started running this year (January 2015) as part of my new year’s resolution. I told myself I want to run a half marathon this year and to be honest the thought of 21 km was a daunting and overwhelming one. I remember coming back home from one cold winter evening training and telling my husband how proud I was for having run 5k without having to stop once. And today when I am nearly able to run the half marathon distance without a stop I look back and see what small significant targets can do!
So the question is why do I run? I run to prove to myself that no fear is bigger than determination, no obstacle more powerful than my will and no target is difficult if I am disciplined. Every time I run an extra mile, I get a sense of achievement that cannot be compared with any other joy and these small achievements make my day.
So all of you out there reading this I want you to know that you can do what you’ve aimed for , and no matter what distance you run, how fast you go or how long you’ve been running for , if you run then you are a runner and one day you will make the distance seem easy!